perhaps i think tis will be the longest post other than last time
most people most forget it…
but nvm hope it’s easy reading for u guys =)
but b4 i start… i need to say something….
wat i wrote might be offensive…
but if i dont blog i wont feel good…
my tears are about to come out….
it’s hard to keep it in heart…
i dont wish to talk to anyone about it…
becoz 1 onli wish to talk to 1 person onli…
and i think she dont have the time to spend wif me…
i was gaming till around 1130 when my brothers MK and Johnny call me
they very piss off wif some things then wanted to ask me out chat
i quited my game… although it’m impt… but brothers are more impt…
upon reaching realise that it’s gers’ matter
Johnny and his stead were playing daytona…
then becoz of 1 stupid action…
she get piss off….
somemore if she’s the one doin it.. she laugh and laugh..
when pp do that… then give attitude…
wth man… u that big mey?
somemore play hard to catch…
SOMETHING that i HATED…. kaoz…
i can tell u guys can nv tell what the gers wanted…
i can see that Johnny loves her alot…
yet she giv tis attitude…
that’s total crap…
that’s why i will nv fall for you…
although some pp used to said we are close…
enough to be JUST normal frens…
nothing much… not to mention best fren…
he went off to find her lor…
left me and MK…..
we went to the playground at 450 there chit chat….
he start talkin about gers matter…
then i realise that how lonely he is…
he’s short…. and the ger he loved once said to him…
“i mind my bf’s height.”
that condenm him to like dunno where le…
he start to tell me his story….
it’s a long story… but i will cut short..
during the sec sch days…
watever he fork out… watever he do…
no matter how good he perform…
he can nv get the heart of his beloved one…
due to one thing… ‘height’
we brothers saw his effort in everything towards her…
yet she still went steady wif another guy….
i can tell that wat MK give out is way too much and extreme…
i doubt her current stead will be able to do so….
he always wanted to find someone to talk to… a ger…
yet all of them treat it so lightly…
some even ignore…
i can understand his feeling…
coz i have been through the feelings b4….
after talkin about his story.. he said to me:
“then u ley?
how’s u and her le?
i thought everything is smooth for u and her,
y today there is this thing happening?
i was extremely shocked and angry for u.”
i dont noe how to reply…
wat he said actually hit me very hard in my mind…
and heart….
when i saw that incident i oso very shocked…
i can believe my eyes oso…
you might feel nth…
just comin to sch see teachers onli…
but what u told me… is all trash…
‘ tired… not coming’
all trash…
tried to meet u so hard to come sch..
keep denying me…
i dont understand y….
somemore in sch.. a few pp asked me y u nv come…
i told them u were tired… having paper in the afternoon perhaps need to study…
in the end… u came…
can u imagine how i feeling?
worse till… u nv tell me u changed ur mind…
sigh….
i totally moodless for the day…
which results in y im so piss wif everything for the day…
feel like crying but cant in public…
crying alone is terrible…
so vent all my emotionals by gaming…
and blasting techno in my room for the whole afternoon till late evening
i don’t noe y i still cant get over u…
for all the things i done…
although it seems like wat a normal fren will do…
or a brother in Christ will do…
but to me… i feel that i had already cross the border of it…
i believe that u can feel it too……..
or it’s simpily stupid and foolish to go for such extend?
wat i wan is attention from u….
stand out from all ur guys fren…
abit too demanding…..
and very buay hiao bye…
but judging from the treatment of me towards u…
i think u get my message…
and if not… i want to tell u now…
” I WAN TO WOO U BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! “
abit impossible…..
coz u hav lost faith in BGR in ur previous relationship…
but im different from him…
maybe better… or worser………
wat i wan is… more attention from u…
actually not onli me and some of my brothers went through similiar cases…
some of out other frens too… be it ger or guy…..
ger dont care about the guy’s feeling…..
taking guys advantage and in the end take nothing had happened…
i cant believe that some of my female frens are doing it!
kaoz…………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
kaoz…………………………………………………………………………………………………………….
not the fren i want…. and the ger i want to make frens wif….
last word:
” if guys give the best they can give to the ger that they like.
but when they get nth in return…
then too bad… it’s all fated “
='( sob sob
Live today like there is no tomorrow 